Fuck your wall (I'm back)...

Listening to pass out by Tha Alkoholiks. ... This music fits my current lifestyle. I used to not drink on the West Coast. But now, I've learned it's not so bad. ... Also, Woodgrain said smoking weed is a sign of maturity in an adult. I think there's something to that. ... There are people in my life that are definitely cruising for a bruising. ... Fuck a dozen roses. ... Don't find me. Don't follow me. ... For everyone who showed some support the last week and a half, I appreciate it. For those of you offended that I didn't tell you what was going on, get the fuck off your own nuts. How selfish are you that you want to be upset that I didn't share something extremely personal with you, and then bitch about it? Just because you weren't told what happend doesn't mean you aren't cool with me, it just means you aren't one of my three best friends in the world that I've known since before I had pubic hair. Go cry in the corner, kid. ... I'm not Sean Paul. I don't need a light. ... I like living in the dark. No one can see what you're doing that way. People who need light just want to be seen and pretend their famous in whatever circle they run in. Why else would you have a bottle party in Fresno? ... Kelis is leaving Nas? Ouch. ... Look, if you can't laugh at most of the things that happen in your life, you'll be miserable and no one will want to hang out with you except people who are also miserable and want someone to feel their faux pain. Those people just want comfort in knowing other people hate things the way they do. ... It's hard for me to be serious around people I actually like. I joke around a lot, if you don't know. And if you don't know, it's obviously because I don't like you. ... Shit is going to happen in your life and maybe it'll be bad at the time, but if you can't lighten yourself enough to eventually chuckle at it, then what good is living? Just swallow some pills. And by "pills" I mean a bullet. ... Whatever is beneath the surface shouldn't be so hard to get to. Saying you're "gaurded" is an excuse to not get close to anyone for reasons only you know, and that wall doesn't make it hard to do. It just means you aren't letting yourself and that's the reason you choose to give instead of being a grown person and just saying "I don't want to get too close." ... Everyone has cheated or been cheated on or had a bad relationship or had a good one that ended badly, or whatever. We all have stories, you're not the only one. If you can never get over those experiences and just use them to build your character, then don't bother with anyone else. It's not fair to other people when you don't start them with a clean slate because of something someone else, who they have no idea exists, did to you. ... Girls of my life can say what they want, but I'm naming my first son and deciding on his hair style. Not you. ... The worst thing you can do is assume things without knowing for sure. You might miss out on something cool. ... I don't have clothes on. ... Four pairs of jeans are scattered in my living room. ... This is why crushes are nice: Because they're still far enough away that you don't know everything about the person except for what you like. That's the coolest feeling, yo. She's perfect at that time. She's smart. She's not annoying. She doesn't expect anything of you. Both of you know there's an attraction but neither person acts on it for fear of fucking up the mystery. And it makes sense, because why turn that person into a carbon copy of something you've already had? I have someone like that in my life right now. If I lived closer it might be more than a crush. ... Sitting on airplanes every week gives me time to think. ... This Bulls-Celtics thing is ridiculous. ... I'm not getting married in a church. ... I might not get married. ... I like fruit. I should eat more of it. ... I hope I don't get the swine flu. What if they discovered the cure for that was eating bacon? That would be funny to me. ... Part of me wants a girl who plays softball. But I've been there already. I don't think it's for me. ... Don't spill shit on my rug even if it's already stained. Bitch. ... I wanna go out tonight. I've been having success doing that. ... Why does Los Angeles and San Francisco close at 2 a.m.? ... I've never been sprayed with mace. ... If your girl is from my area, she probably already knows me. ... Whatever you got for me, I can handle. ... "You've got to be fucking kidding me." I like to say that. ... Go west like Kanye. ... I can't drink Henny anymore. It taste too syrupy now. ... Pass the asprin. ... I'm about to dash. ... Listening to Half Day Closing by Portishead. ... Be cool and I really mean that. Don't be a jerk unless someone deserves it.